That
the 11 times exact questions that I had on this month (and it still
hasn’t ended yet,so it might be more to come :P)-from different person of course
Hmm….and my answer is the same, nope….
I believe in God, so I believe in after life. so when I die,i know I wont be disepear, I still be me, and also curious to see my soul. I’m
not trying to be ****** , I do have sins, and I am afraid to facing and being judge for all of those sins. But
its something that I have to,part of the proses n the system, so be it. Beside,
I know I also done and does some good things on this world to..so yeah..my
answer nope.
Considering death, I used to think that I am more afraid
on dying alone than to facing death it self. I grow up with the story of
my grand grandma whom got asthma and died while solat-and it took days for the neighbors and relatives
to notice and find the body-although the body remind in good condition and have wonderfully nice fragrance. still when I grow up and found that I has asthma too
(I had this since I was 16th years
old,so thank god I had wonderfully childhood experiences ^_^) , it used
to be my worst nightmare
But after experiencing almost-dying-alone-more-than-once, I realize it wasn’t that bad. Of course it a lot easier if on the present-time-but-I-don’t-know-when, I have
people whom I loved so rounding me, have people to hear my most sincere apologize;
help me to say my last pray to Allah.
But if I don’t have that luxury, fine by me.
it
more than enough to still have ability to remembering that I have people whom I
loves and loves me in return. that I might haven’t fulfill “the cycle” but at
least I live my life fully. Beside, I know I never being alone, even when I am
feeling lonely, so I have no worries
Considering both death and dying alone, I am far more afraid with life itself ^_^. As a proof, my mom was having trouble giving birth of me, I need time to rethink, I almost had extra time a week inside of her :P. the doctor said my placenta
was sticking to her, but we both know that because I haven’t finished negotiating with angels :P. But yet I face it, I born (force though :P), I live everyday of my
life, because I had to, there no other way. just considering and
reconsidering every steps that I would take become a habit to me, so I had no regrets.
The bottom line is:
I cant choose and control the way I born and die…it choose
me
But at least I can choose and control the way I live
isn’t that more than any creature could ask ?
so do U afraid of death?
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