It happen again….
I think maybe this will be the climax
Hhh……….
Right now things being going on like in a war field
Conspiracy, tense, disappointed, anger, confused, tears, distressed
All mix emotion just keeps built up……..
I think I already seen the worst of this
So if this time would be the worst of the worst
But if the outcome I (moreover us) finally can breath freely
Maybe it is worth for a while
Coz’some says:
Things going for the worst first, before its gets better
I truly hope those words its true >_<
I try to think this problem is nothing
Coz’ in every day, every one is facing their own problems
Problem that maybe much worst than mine
But still….
This problem is already being the story of my life,
I am afraid it slowly corroded my (/our) soul…
Sometime I wish I was someone else
Someone that bad, rude and horrible
So maybe then, I can act freely
I can hurt this person as much as my beloved people being hurt
But being me
Even right now I’m not (yet) a good person either though
But I always try to be the better me
It’s my goal, my way of life
So I can’t act that ways……
Well don’t get me wrong
I’m not afraid of this person
Even though being a woman n’ know nothing about martial art,
So my only weapon is the words,
But adding with the God guidance
I think it’s more than enough to protect my self
But I am worried about my beloved people
Coz’ I can’t be with them for 24/7
So again I just pray that God will always protect them
In the end,
I realize I just have to submit to my own fate
What ever will be, will be
The future is not mine to see
Let God be our shelter
And guide us to the straight path
(Amiin)
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